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there was a car across the street that had a horn alarm THAT WOULD NOT STOP. It started around noon and finally ended an hour ago. It was nuts and I wanted to harm bunnies. ok no but it was annoying. EDIT: OMG it started up again because it started to rain hard! ARGGHHGLE

I watched Disney's <i>The Rescuers</i>. I'd only ever seen the Down Under sequel. The movie was cute and all vintage Disney with super sketchy animation, like Robin Hood and 101 Dalmatians. I liked that Bernard and Bianca had the same voice actors from the sequel.

I woke up a few hours early than I normally do, so I feel tired right now at 9:30pm. I hope it'll make me go to sleep early, and maybe get my time schedule back on track... since I've been out of work, my sleeping is all out of whack and it's been so hard to get it in order. I managed to be somewhat productive today, but I feel so bleehh. and weirdly enough, my bare feet feel hot (they're always cold!). Don't know what that could mean, Google didn't seem to know either. Whatever it is it's making me not want to walk and do more stuff lol.

the most massive striped centipede was in the bathroom. I screamed a little and killed it with my shoe. Poor thing, I didn't want to kill it, but it was too fast and scary to catch and take outside. ugh when I whacked it a pair of its legs came off and were still twitching long after death! Staring at it made me think how the world is an interesting and weird place.

A guy I went out with ages ago texted me today. I had suspected he was dating someone else which is why he stopped calling me. And he confirmed it, lol. That's something I like about him, he's very straightforward like that. I don't get jealous or anything because I don't know what I think about him other than he's cute and maybe sometimes a little naive? But now basically is telling me out of the string of girls he's dated recently I was the best one. Maybe I could have been the one dating him all this time if I hadn't strung him along so long for a second date. I kept canceling and it's no wonder he moved to other waters. I'm rarely on the ball with things.

He's asking pretty much if I want to try again. I'm feeling lonely lately so I'm going to say whenever is a good time for me. But as I'm jobless and am so broke I haven't been hanging out with any friends or going on any dates.. it sucks, lol. I want to get out more but I'm so trapped with money and obligations. I can't wait until it's all over and I can save up some money and move away. But that notion is scary too. Being out completely on my own. Sometimes I feel I subconsciously stay in this rut because I'm afraid of change and unknown. But I can't stay here forever, I need to get out in the world.

I ate all the whole wheat and there's only white bread left. Will have to buy some more tomorrow. I've stopped eating white bread and now after month I prefer the taste of whole wheat. I never would have imagined it. I actually had to eat some white bread last week and it tasted weird.. too .. sweet. I need to get some soymilk or almond milk too. I want to find a healthy whole grain cereal, but the grocery might just have stuff that's full of junk.